cindy

2006-10-08T17:22:00.000+08:00

I've not yet start revising or doing my hwk
for this whole weekend.
I've been chionging the Full House vcd
and I've finished!
At first I thought it wouldn't be a nice show for me
but gradually, the show is getting my interest.
as there is a love story inside!
A super complicating love story. =.=
Even my bro was watching with me. :D
Anyway, the haze is better today I guess.
Thats all, may not be blogging much.

oMelancholicY

2006-10-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

Why am I extremely not happy today?

The haze is super strong today.
Looks like it's gonna last for a few more wks.
Sighs...

PS: ty ben today for being able to talk with me
when I needed someone seriously ! (:
ty for always being here for me! (:

oMelancholicY

2006-10-04T20:08:00.000+08:00

Alright, have been busy surfing thru sprees and stuffs
to look for nice online clothes to buy (:
Anyway, going to get my alloy skinny jeans on Friday.
And might also be getting a Hollister darkpink tee at only $11.
How incredibly cheap right! XD"
I'm still waiting for my E.L.F mascara and pencil eyeliner to arrive in sg
from an online spree-er which is my friend :b
And I'm getting my mini size anna sui dolly perfume soon from postage!

Busy spending money, bleah!
Hope when the bill comes, I'm the first to open it
and keeping them away from my mum :b
My mum is so gonna kill me,
if she knew that I bought that skinny jeans for 56bucks. omfg :/
I think after all these, I'll most probably stop spending
money from my bank. If not I'll be bankrupt. lol.
And by then, everything will be exposed. :o

Prelims sucks the most.
All my results are so effin' jialat.
I'm not going to say anything about them
Totally NO COMMENTS, pfft.
Prelim is making me lose faith in my O'lvls -.-
It's as if even if you study so effin' hard,
also bloody hell no use. Humpf. ):

BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ELE!
HOPE YOU TOTALLY ENJOY YOURSELF TODAY! (:

oMelancholicY

2006-10-03T14:56:00.000+08:00

Hazy and super bad weather recently.
Maybe is the India's fault again. Rahhhhhhhh.
Annoying, this hazy weather is causing us
having flu or maybe some sickness.

Anyway, I'm damn happy that I'm getting a skinny pants at 56bucks only,
from an online seller. sooooo cooooool.
Thou the colour is a bit tad common, but I'm fine with it.
I just need a skinny that's all. (:
And also getting a anna sui dolly perfume.
But it's small in size from an online seller too.
Wooohooooo XD"

Got this pretty pictures and stuffs selling in a spree website.

This is a super nice diamante crown cell phone keychain.

The brand is Juicy Couture.
Nice right the brand? so crowny. LOL :x
And I just like it when pink & brown is mix tgt.
Beautiful, I should say. (:
I like that purse & that small handbag with wrist chain.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Alright, tata! Off to gaming and bathing and
watching Full house later .

oMelancholicY

2006-09-29T17:11:00.000+08:00

Mixtape

You say hello, inside I'm screaming I love you
You say goodnight, in my mind
I'm sleeping next to you
You drive away from my car crash of a heart
And I don't know

But you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was so much more than that
About me and you

You talk to him, and it burns me like the sun
You talk to her, and you say that you feel like he's the one
I talk to me, but you can't hear the pain I feel
You don't know

Cause you gave me the best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I only wish there was more than that
About me and you

(Bridge)
Oh, don't turn around and say bye again
Yeah it crushes my head when you call me
Your friend and I'm not the same person
From back in the day in the back of the class
that you thought was gay
No I can't find the words cause I lost them
The minute they fell out of my mouth
And it's love and I'm in it, so give me your lips
And just let me kiss 'em
and let's get messed up and listen to possibly...

The best mixtape I have
And even all the bad songs ain't so bad
I just wish there was more than that
About me and you

PS: I've finally applied for an atm card myself! XD"
Ok I know it's weird, at this age of mine, yet I don't own any atm cards.
I need it now for ibanking stuffs for easy transactions!
It's easier for me to buy online stuffs and sell my stuffs at the same time.
Gonna clear my wardrobe tmr,
so that I might find some stuffs to post.
TATA!

oMelancholicY

2006-09-28T11:45:00.000+08:00

Wooohoooooo. Finally the last paper is tmr,which is Science p1. MCQ!
mwahaha. :D
And I'm on my relaxing stage alr.
I mugged very hard for chem ytd,
and during chem today, I went total blank in certain qns.
Hate it totally!!
I didn't think or calculate too much for my POA p1 today too.
Bet I'll just fail it XD"

Anyway, rakion is getting popular in my class.
Some guys are starting to play alr!
And they are totally noobs :x
Sometimes, no matter how irritating or annoying
or effin' jerks they all can be, they are still jokes for my life!

I fell down ytd, and somehow I think I injured my right arm
which has been feeling strange since this morning.
I can't really exert my strength on it, and I can't stretch my arm too!
Terrible.
Alright, time to bathe and then rakion.
I hope my modem today will be good and stable. *prays*

Two more weeks to O'lvls. ):

oMelancholicY

2006-09-27T22:15:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, effin' jerks.

2006-09-27T13:16:00.000+08:00

Aku Bukan Untukmu

Dahulu kau mencintaiku
Dahulu kau menginginkanku
Meskipun takkan pernah ada jawabku
Tak berniat kau tinggalkan aku

Sekarang kau pergi menjauh
Sekarang kau tinggalkan aku
Disaat ku mulai mengharapkanmu
Dan ku mohon maafkan aku

Aku menyesal t'lah membuatmu menangis
Dan biarkan memilih yang lain
Tapi jangan pernah kau dustai takdirmu
Pasti itu terbaik untukmu

Janganlah lagi kau mengingatku kembali
Aku bukanlah untukmu
Meski ku memohon dan meminta hatimu
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya untuk diriku

Meski kau memohon meminta hatiku
Jangan pernah tinggalkan dirinya
Untuk diriku

To my dear friend : "No one said the best loves last forever."
But don't worry, best friends are always there for you when you need em'
I actually almost teared because of seeing how sad you were.
Rmbr, if there's one time when you feel very depressed and yet no one
to lend you a shoulder, I'm always there for you.
I'm just a phone call away (:
Time will heal all wounds, it's nvr easy to get thru this passage I know,
but nevertheless, you've still got friends.
We'll help you get thru :D
And stop keeping everything inside your heart,
it's unhealthy,sweets.

oMelancholicY

2006-09-24T19:35:00.000+08:00

Let Me Fall

It's October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year's come and gone
And nothing's changed at all
Wasn't I supposed to be someone
Who can face the things that I've been running from...

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...

I've become much too good at being invincible
I'm an expert at play it safe, and keep it cool
But I swear this isn't who I'm meant to be
I refuse to let my life roll all over me...

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I...
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived, just a little...

I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody
I wanna be somebody
I, I wanna be somebody who can face the things that I've been running from

Let me feel, I don't care if I breakdown
Let me fall, even if I hit the ground
And if I
Cry a little
Die a little
At least I know I lived...

It's October again
Leaves are coming down
One more year's come and gone
And nothing's changed at all

oMelancholicY

2006-09-23T16:41:00.000+08:00

I've been watching GOONG the whole morning till afternoon.
Getting more and more sad! EMO!
Anyway, I've left with 2 more episodes . (:
And then I'll be watching Full House introduced by my friend.
Alright, time for gaming~

Dang Shin Eun... Na Neun Ba Bo Ib Ni Da.
I was a fool. I was a fool.
My regrets were too late too. I know that it can't be turned back.
I know that I can't see you too.
I was so wrong, I'm so sorry.
I didn't get to say then, instead I was just being rotten.
So I'm here now pleading for forgiveness with worry

I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myself with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.

Don't be like that, think about it.
Think about what it took us to get here
Think about it again, you're going to regret it.
I was so wrong, I'm really sorry
I didn't get a chance to say then, instead I was just being rotten.
So I'm here now pleading for forgiveness with worry

I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myeslf with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.

I can't live a moment without you.
I still cry even no matter how I drink or if I cut my hair.

I'm a fool
Because of my pride I'm ruining myself with alcohol
and the bitter taste of cigarette smoke.
I cry my eyes out all day because I still love you
You and I, we both are like fools.

Don't ruin yourself anymore...

The definition of LOVE.

oMelancholicY

2006-09-22T14:01:00.000+08:00

I can see the future.
I know I'll fail my Phyics badly!
I really hate Phyics, somehow Chemistry is still my beloved (:
Chemistry has niceeee names. Stylo milo ones!
Like silver & gold! and yadayada....

Today the day has finally arrived!
The day that I don't need to look at my books
not even a single sight of em', NOT EVEN A GLANCE!
I mean after school, which is nowwwww until tmrrrrrr.
Until which maybe Sunday or just tmr, I'll be mugging again. ):
I'm not really mugging that hard for my prelims as I'm not into JCs.
I don't wanna get stuck with uniforms and stress for another few yrs.
I'll probably go mad.
Time for fun, and GOONG (:

I'm playin the role of the happy girl
But no one knows
Inside I'm alone
But I would never let it show
I get everyday
Too much work and not enough play
Over and over
It's always the same...

oMelancholicY

2006-09-19T17:01:00.000+08:00

The Day You Said Goodbye

Take me as you are,
Push me off the road, the sadness,
I need this time to be with you
I'm freezing in the sun;
I'm burning in the rain
The silence;
I'm screaming,
Calling out your name.
And I do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what I'll do if we say goodbye.

To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

The calmness in your face
That I see through the night
The warmth of your light is pressing unto us
You didn't ask me why
I never would have known oblivion is falling down.
And I do reside in your light
Put out the fire with me and find
Yeah you'll lose the side of your circles
That's what I'll do if we say goodbye.

To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

If you could only know me like your prayers at night
Then everything between you and me will be all
Right.

To be is all I gotta be
And all that I see
And all that I need this time
To me the life you gave me
The day you said goodnight.

She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me
She's already taken,
She's already taken
She's already taken me.
The day you said goodnight

Sadist & emo song, sniffles*
Anyway, my connection is crazy.
Alright, time to play games, or watch vcd
& then back to study, study and study.
rahh.

oMelancholicY

2006-09-16T19:53:00.000+08:00

Done with my new layout (:
Cause I'm kind of tired of the previous layout :x
Went out to have 2hrs POA remedial just now.
It was raining cats & dogs again & again. -.-
Super cold!!!
Anyway, prelims will start at next thurs.
And I'm still sitting here. :/
But most probably, I'll start studying and do all my hwk tmr.
So I'll be online during the morning, or not at all.
Teehehe, alright, off to gaming! XD"

~~Scare,refrain,afraid.~~
oMelancholicY

2006-09-15T14:12:00.000+08:00

Sky black black, Rain big big.
Don't want stop, still rain rain.
WAHAHAHA. I'm bored. ):
But I'm hyper and very happy now.
No worries. (:

I Don’t Want To Become This Way
但愛太多太難
Day By Day
是什麼作祟
為什麼會流淚
原來是心痛不斷責備

~~He didn't smoke!!! (:~~
oMelancholicY

2006-09-14T15:46:00.000+08:00

Symptoms of Stress:

How the individual feels
anxious, aggressive, apathetic, bored, tired, depressed, frustrated, guilty, irritable, lacking in confidence, lonely, paranoid, tense, nervous, worried

How the individual thinks
difficulty in making decisions, difficulty in solving problems, forgetfulness, hypersensitivity to criticism, difficulty in concentration

My ulcers are killing me. I hate them!!!!
I got very fed-up ytd because of the cme project.
I flared my anger on my family members and Ben ytd.
I'm so sorry, 미안합니다. ):
Thanks ax, for being understanding in the morning today (:

~~Don't look at me that way, I might fall in love with you.~~
oMelancholicY

2006-09-12T17:36:00.000+08:00

나는 내가 당신을 사랑한다고 생각합니다.

~~emoemoemo.~~
oMelancholic Y

2006-09-11T21:32:00.000+08:00

MUGGING IN PROCESS

Damn msn, I can't sign in.
What's wrong with it?!?! Rah.
From now on, I'm into serious mode.
No gaming and no online until
I finish writing a few chaps of my notes.
And yes, I've just completed about 3/4 chaps of chem
and some chem hwk.
Damn, I must passed my science with flying colours!
Please motivate me everyone.
If you ever see me online, pls say "STUDY STUDY,OK CINDY,BYE!GO NOW!"
Thankyou!
Now time to game awhile before my lovely samsoon starts. (:

~~I giv my love away.~~
oMelancholicY

2006-09-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

Now I'll introduce you all, Mac THE GREAT Jack Russell !
He's just 1 yr old and he knows how to swim alr!
And yea, when he swims he is damn cute. Teehehehe.
I WANT A DOG!
Ok, here's the rest of my photos!

After tanning with ele&ax, went to eat at habourfont
and then took bus all the way to Chanel's house.
Her house is damn fun! Cause there are lots of cosmetics to try!
And also hair gels and facial refreshments. LOL.
Damn, I also wanna be a family with her! :x
Anyway, after that Chanel & I went to clementi to meet the others.
And finally met all my long lost loves. Jk. lol.
It's just that it's very long since I last saw them,
and yea, it was fun outing with them.
But this also might be the last outing before my O'lvls start.
So I gave up my "Jin San Shun" drama, and stay out late with them.
We sat at KFC and chit-chatting non-stop.
And went home without my LAST BUS!! So I have to walk home.
Days' long, but it hadn't end yet when I came home,
I went to talk on phone until 3am last night! Bravo, bravo. XD"
I think I did some embarrassing things.
PARDON ME, THAT SOMEONE!
Teehehehe.
Alright, took about 2 hrs+ to finish putting all the photos tgt.
Time to enjoy myself before school starts after tmr!

~~I think I love you.~~ omfg.
oMelancholicY

2006-09-07T14:00:00.000+08:00

I went thru all the tributes for Steve Irwin at youtube just now.
The tributes were all very sad and simply awesome.
At first, I thought I would not have any feeling about this,
as I thought I didn't know who is that guy.
But after seeing all the news and reading and watching.
Somehow, I realised in fact I do know him afterall.
He's been thru my childhood. His shows were simply awesome.
And I felt really sad.
R.I.P STEVE IRWIN. You'll always be remembered.

PS: TANNING DAY IS TMRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

oMelancholic Y

2006-09-05T14:07:00.000+08:00

사랑해요, 당신 어리석은 바보 !

sighs. emoemoemo. ):

2006-09-04T14:39:00.000+08:00

I've just edit and add a few more stuffs into my blog.
And ran thru all the previous entries.
SO EMO! Can't blame, I'm an emo person :/

Anyway, I gave my long & heavy hair a cut at VINCENT&DANIEL just now.
And I feel so refresh and my head is super light! (:
Teehehehe. But my long fringe is gone! But it'll grow back. :D
Alright, I'm super bored & tired.
Too hyper in the morning, so kind of low batt right now :x
Seriously, I can't wait to go tanning this Friday with ele&ax.
I want to go tanning everyday.
Just hope that everything passes quickly.
And holidays end slowly :x

I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way.
oMelancholicY

2006-09-03T20:32:00.000+08:00

CAM WHORING. The word that says it all (:

2006-09-02T00:48:00.000+08:00

Oh well, couldn't connect internet properly just now due to I-don't-know-what reason.
Anyway, today I went shopping non-stop with ax.
It's as if, I've nvr been to retail therapy for donkey yrs.
And we were almost starved to death because everywhr we go,
there'll be shops which stop us for taking a look!
It was great, of course, no pain, no gain.
Ended up we're both totally tired and having sore/pain legs.
But nevertheless, we've gained what we need (:

We went to wisma atria, heeren & fareast.
Famous shops we visited were f21,topshop,mng & blahhh.
We've visited tons of shops and I've tried tons of clothes and so did ax.
That was why,we got pretty tired.
As my parents weren't at home, when I came home,
I needa wash my clothes and bring down dry clothes
and hang the wet ones. So tiring.
Now I understand how my mum feels. !$%#^&*.
Anyway, took lots of photos with what I've tried. (Shown below)
Seriously, I just hoped that I'll get 1000bucks or even more one day
so that I can like purchase all these tops & bottoms at once,
without much hesitations or frustrations.

And I would so much like to buy that f21 skirt at 66bucks
and that skinny jeans at heeren for 79bucks!
See the price? couldn't afford it, thus didn't buy.
That was why, even 100bucks can't purchase me much stuffs.
But I am good today, I'm still left with 22+bucks or so.
But probably, I'll still get a good scolding from my mum
for buying another tee. OH NOOOOOOOOOOO. :/
But seriously hula&co's tees are super nice,
just that they are from bangkok, thus quality is not very good.
And I've not yet purchase my simple belt,
because everywhr I go are those vintage belts, oh mine. -.-
Vintage is so into thrend now, but I'm so not interested in vintage :/
We were so twins today right ax? XD"
And yes, we've got our crown skirts alr! totally cool (:

Alright. I'm tired, TATA !
It was a great day today ,sweets! ty (:

oMelancholicY

2006-08-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

Had a tiny breach with someone just now.
I'm super tired today because of PE.
And Maths gave me lots of headaches today.
I don't like doing stupid sums which completely complicates my mind.
And at the same time, when you think you can do it, you get stuck there.
I gave up alot of sums today, why? because I don't wanna try.

My parent's going malaysia on this friday,
and mum wrote a checklist for me.
8 things to be done. *CRYS*
I think it'll be the day of torture for me.
I needa learn to wash my clothes and including my bro's,
which is soooooo unfair! *SHOUTS FOR JUSTICE*
I'm also kind of afraid that I'll burn my house down or smth. LOL.
But I've got 43bucks from my mum
as an allowance for my next week's holiday!
So that means, I have to spend every single dollar with CARE.
I wanna go tanning, retail therapy, enjoy, more fun and laughters
before I get back to mug hard for my prelims.
Tmr's ACES' & TEACHERS' DAY.
Boring, but will be back home damn early! XD"

I think I'm falling blindly

and I can't seem to stop myself.

oMelancholic Y

2006-08-29T18:59:00.000+08:00

I'm having my meetup payments
on my taiwan hairband and skirt around this week!

teeeehehehehe~
LAST DAY FOR EXAMS TMR!
I think Ill flunk my geo paper totally. I wrote lots of shits on it.
And I can't be bothered. I've sinnnnnnnnned !
I've not been studying, SLACKING!
Mum's going to malaysia this friday for 3days!
And I'm so going to miss her! *CRYS*
And maybe I'm going to sleep all alone in the house for 1 day. -.-
I'M SCARE, I ADMIT!
alright, tata ! I can't wait for my stuffs (:
Loves all my sweets, and take care !

oMelancholic Y

2006-08-27T16:02:00.000+08:00

Yea, completed new layout!
And cbox is back! xD"
I'm slacking during my last week of exams! :x
I'm still left with MT P2, Phy/Chem P1, Geography,
POA P1 & Maths P2.
In the middle of these exams, an extra chem test pop out. -.-
And then, short day on thursday!
AND MY HOLIDAYS BEGINS ON FRIDAY! like, hoooray ! (:
But I'm going back to school on Mon,Tues and Wed for remedials.
I miss my clique, cause it's holidays.
Like finally I can settle down to meet them out.
I know I've not been a good friend,
to go according to all the outings you guys organised.
I just hoped all of you understand!
And yes ! I've getting my cool skirt on friday. Meetup payments!

The front and the back.
But I'm buying the silver crown which I do not hav the pic! HEHEHE!
And all for just 24bucks as the minimum low price.
Introducing all my sweets, if interested, do let me know!
I'll tell that friend of mine. (:
Ha, ok gone!

As he goes left and you stay right.

Between the lines of fear and blame

And you begin to wonder why you came.

oMelancholic Y

2006-08-26T18:58:00.000+08:00

My first polaroid (:
Completed selling off two stuffs alr.
I'm happy and proud of myself totally! XD"
Oh and really, I love all my sweets. (:
I went out for meetup payments.
Then I went shopping alone westmall today.
But was damn packed due to SGIDOL.
I saw all of them, but didn't take their pic cause I'm short ok!
And my camera is not those super zoom in type.
But just to say, jonathan and paul twohill rocks \m/. :D
Tata, darlings.

Oh, tell me what should I do, I'm too mixed up with my feelings.
oMelancholic Y

2006-08-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

Request by my sweeties to blog, so here I am.

I think I'm having real stress outbreaks.
I'll get real pissed off, irritated &
annoyed easily by slightest things.
And I've got hot boiled blood. Risk of having h.b.p soon. Omfg.
You believe? You're dumb man. LOL.

Anyway, after preps for this last 2 weeks.
Then finally holiday for 1 week,
which during the first few days,
I'll be having my extra lessons.
And thereafter, prelims on the way.
After prelims, the great one is coming,
none other than O'lvls -.-
See how cramp, how tight is my schedule.
And thus,makes me keep rejecting all my clique outings.
And I've really been staying at home like a pathetic person
I,myself, also hoped to get a retail therapy soon, but
IT IS EXAMS PERIOD.
And I have to keep reminding myself abt it. -.-
Sighs.
Sorry to anyone, if I've flare my anger on you or smth.
Do be patient with me until O'lvl ends.
I've nvr been so fucked up in my life before. RAH.
I need tons of rest and fun!!!

GONE,shall return if I want to.
Yours sincerely : oMelancholic. Y

2006-08-16T16:19:00.000+08:00

P.S: Putting all the tops & bottoms that I'm selling @ MY LJ SHOP !
Pls view it from there! THANKS (:

Sweeties, you can register your acct there,
so that when you comment me at there, you will not be as
annoymous.

To Sinyee: Sorry your price too low alr :/

Anything, comment below Sweets , and I'll reply as soon as possible.

2006-08-13T16:35:00.000+08:00

Great, I've finally done with my new layout.
So that when my O's have finished, I do not need to fret anymore.
It's best viewed at 1024 by 768 pixels. (:

Anyway, last but not least,
Good luck to all my sweeties for their incoming exams
and the great one,O's.
Take care ! XD"

Oh, forget to tell you guys, there will not be any flashbox anymore.
Till then, just below this post, the word Sweets.
Click it and it'll pop smth out! :D
Drop your comments and I'll reply!

2006-06-24T21:37:00.001+08:00

I'm so damn lazy to blog recently.
I've tons of photos to upload on Ling's wedding day
And things and stuffs to say.
But I'm just too lazy.
But overall, it was super sweet & blissful for ling.
Anyway, schools' starting. Chionging holiday assignments.

And I've got news to share with all my sweeties.
I might be shutting down my blog soon,
due to laziness of blogging and personal reasons.
Or maybe shifting to private blogs.
But I'll still be leaving this blog on for sometime.

Anyway, below are some youtube videos I've just uploaded.
Kind of noisy, funny and stuffs. Enjoy (:

Ling's Wedding 1
Ling's Wedding 2
Ling's Wedding 3

2006-06-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

Time passes so fast, time waits for no one.
Ahh, tmr's alr ling's wedding.
And that shows, next week is the start of school!!!
And that means, THE DOOM'S DAY is coming!
My holiday assignments have been left there like rubbish.
I do not want to touch it, neither do I wanna do it.
I'm completely lazy, I'm so lack of motivation.
Shit, it's my future. So much fear of studies. RAH.

I have so much to do, but there's too little time.
Tmr,I'm not free for the whole day, just for ling's wedding alone.
And I've wasted another precious day to sit down and rush my bloody assignments.
I feel like I'm a business woman, career-minded?
Ha, I'm just super plain lazy. How to get rid of it?
Damn, life's so stress up.

Meet out with sy today to pluck my eyebrows.
And chit-chat, walk around westmall
and ate not-so-nice grape mini icecream.
Tmr I'm going to see her and my clique again
So busy, so much things to do.
Drives me so mad.
Alright, I needa have an early rest, cause tmr need to wake up early!
No time to waste, no time!

GOODNIGHT ALL MY SWEEETIESS Y

2006-06-19T19:05:00.000+08:00

AHHHH !!
I just changed my layout cause I got nth to do.
Ha, and now I don't know whr to put my flashbox. -.-
RAHHH.

Can someone give me some suggestions on whr I should put my flashbox!
So for now, I shall throw it at the top. LOL :/
Hah, korean drama start alr!
Gotta stop here. TATA~

2006-06-17T18:02:00.000+08:00

Alright, shall blog what happened ytd.

Went out with my clique and waited for them at lot 1.
Then while waiting,crapped with chanel & sy.
Then yl came,and then we walked around lot 1
Well, lot 1 changed so much. LOL, too long nvr go alr :/
Anyway, blahh. ate dinner at there, played arcade,
Took photos and then watch them played Kpool.
And then went to yl's hse.
Played with her dog,RUSSEL or RUSELL. ermm,LOL.
Watch tv, played card games.
Hah, so funny.
And finally I've learnt how to play mahjong!!!
Tho, I still catch no balls as my friends keep helping me :/
But it's super fun, and addictive. Ha.
Oh well, pretty obvious, we spent whole morning playing mahjong
And laughing our ass off at NOOBS like alby! :x
And maybe me *POUTS*
No sleep, no rest.
We played until 5+am, and took cab home.
And yup, I slept until 12+pm this afternoon. LOL.
Alright, I'm gone! :D

I love all of my sweeties! xD

2006-06-16T14:42:00.000+08:00

Okay, as requested by JOAN , I shall blog. (:

Ytd went out to do some holiday assignments
And alot of stupid and crappy and funny stuffs going on.
Well, I'm lazy to say it :x

And this morning, doing CIP which is stupid.
Made my hands so pain & dry

And the stuff member kept ordering me here and there >.<

Anyway, there were some stupid things going on also.

Pervertic and despo gays! RAHH.

Rain rain rain, every morning rain so big.
I wonder who made God mad. Ummmmmmm.

Anyway, after CIP, went to foodcourt and eat.

And blahhhh stuffs. Lazy to say.

And then, later this evening, needa go lot 1 to meet my clique.

HAH. celebrating advanced "singles" outing, for one of my friend.

And last but not least, going out tmr again to do holiday assignments.

I'M SO BUSY!!!

Okay, the end. I'm too lazy to blog.

Shall go MIA again from here!

Take care and good luck my loves :D

2006-06-14T04:13:00.000+08:00

[Edited] : Remove the animations as it's lagging my blog :x

HAH. My animations! :D
And I did one with ax & my maple char! (:
Tho abit noobish, LOL. But at least I know how alr!
THANKS JOAN & WENN <3

2006-06-13T10:34:00.000+08:00

Hah, have not been blogging faithfully.
Wanted to blog last night, but couldn't.
Because blogspot was under maintence or smth ?
And it was really sooooooo lag can.

Anyway, I went out with a VIP GUEST ytd.
Hah, just kidding . :D
Just to accpy him to watch X-men3 at cine.
And bring him to eat nice wanton noodles in heeren
And go around town to find his multi-tasking shoes.
See him play his hp games.
Listen to my mp3 tgt.
And man, he likes hitting my head! *POUTS*
But I don't know why, I'm just super happy today.
Hah :D

Anyway,smth happened to my grandmother.
And I've not yet visit her.
Because I refused to :/
I'm such errr, unfilial?
But I'm going today!
My grandma's days are numbered.

I've not yet done my holiday assignments.
There's a whole pile of it under my table.
I'm really lazy to do. And I'm only left with 2 weeks.
Damn, I don't like holidays because of those ):
Hah, time to go off. Before mum nags again.
TATA!

I miss the past (:

2006-06-08T11:41:00.000+08:00

Hah. For thy heart has died. <3
Deleted previous entry for no reason.
Just feel like deleting. :D

Anyway,tmr's the last day of sch.
I can't wait for tmr. (:

IT'S GONNA RAIN ! *POUTS*

And HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN! (:

2006-06-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where she's loved
Concrete angel

2006-06-06T09:27:00.000+08:00

It's a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face?
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again
When I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak
Crying and cheating, the fooling around

(But) I'm not missing you .

I guess love will be nice for someone else's life.

2006-06-04T17:11:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO.
I'm finally done with a bit touching on my blog layout (:
Background about stylo writings on love. cool right? :D

Anyway, I was super bored today
So I played a bit of rakion,watch cartoon,
find paintbrushes and edit my blog layout.
And wala~ Hehe. :b
And oh ya, next week,
I'm still going to sch for 4 days ):
Okay, time to rest ! TATA!

I bottled everthing up
because I've found myself alone.
I kept picturing myself standing alone in the dark.

2006-06-03T16:10:00.000+08:00

Through these past few days I’ve been reminiscing back
It's the first time I couldn't understand what we had
Was it love? Was it passion? Was it all a waste of time?
Now its hate,now its pain,now its all this shit combined
I can't force myself to erase all our memories
But when I'm thinking back I always feel like u fooled me
Nobody to blame but myself from being blinded
Crying in my sleep hoping this hurting passes by
I've been told by my sisters how these guys are all the same
But you had me so convinced that my world suddenly changed
Cause you always made me smile but a smile isn't forever
And I guess its unpredictable like change in the weather
I thought we'd work it out like those other times before
But the truth had to reveal, we can't live a lie no more
I'm still young and I'm still trying to stay true to my heart
My dreams have disappeared and now my life's scattered apart

- Love Hurts

2006-06-02T19:21:00.000+08:00

I'M SICK ):

Thanks for your concern (:

2006-05-31T18:38:00.000+08:00

BORING.
The trip to Singapore Poly was super boring
All I did was listening to lectures and eating buffet
and back to listening to more lectures
without exactly doing anything,
Okay, maybe some drawings of comics.

So nice if I got out of sch
And start from some poly where no one knows me
And make new friends
And making sure that I'm not like what I am now .
And I seriously getting emo this few days
for not-known-reason.

^FLAWS.FAKES.

2006-05-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

Hohoho, what a tired outing.
Went out with ax for shopping.
And I spent super fast and quick today.
Went to Heeren, Adidas Shop and bought a sling handbag.
It's super cool. Thanks ax for noticing it. xD
And then, we walked around Heeren, looking for ax's tee.
Then took fab lunch at Heeren. Super DELICIOUS :D
And then, we head down to FAR EAST.
Which I bought a brown tee at HULA&CO. (:
And ax bought her jeans. THANKS ME ! :x
And I tried a pink/brown stripe tee at BLOSSOMZ
But I didn't buy it, cause I'm BROKE. ):
And blah blah blah, reached home finally. :D

PHOTOS :D

2006-05-27T12:03:00.000+08:00

心事丛丛 ...

2006-05-22T21:40:00.000+08:00

Waluo, my jaw problem getting worst.
I can't open my mouth big , and I can't chew hard stuffs
from yesterday until today =.=
I can't even have a relaxing yawn. Rah !
I just hoped it would be totally fine tmr.
So painful >.<

Anyway, this week's schedule is totally stupid.
I'm like so fucking busy like that
every day until thursday end at 4+pm. -.-
How I wish time fly now.

I just want my JUNE HOLIDAYS.

2006-05-19T18:34:00.000+08:00

I need 150bucks ! TY!

2006-05-19T15:07:00.000+08:00

Fucking shit.

Oh well, I want to buy uncle tobby's today.
But I spent $8.80 on a japanese lunch set,
which made me so bloated until I wanna vomit.
Then I lent ax $4 to buy her stuffs
helped & teached her stuffs.
Then finally came home,
which I left pathetically $2.

I needa buy another lipbalm,
I so want that Maybelline XXL mascara.
I know I'm vain, thankyou :D
I want a roxy handbag!
I want a adidas jacket.
I need to go shopping!
I wanna meet my CLIQUE!
Sighs...

2006-05-18T14:50:00.000+08:00

Hohoho,oh well, I've been unfaithful to my blog nowadays :/
Anyway,went out ytd with ax for POSEIDON,
which was a last minute decision.
Simply love it, though scary,though I shouted during one part.
But it's just super exciting :o

Oh my,I got back all my results.
To my surprise, I only passed CL.
How great
How wonderful would my mum react when she saw my report book? :/
I'm loss of words at my own results.
But fuck it, it's over. I can't turn back.
So for now,I just needa work and study more harder than before.

And recently, I've been gaming like the whole day str after sch? :/
O2JAM,RAKION,MAPLE,NEOPETS :x
Next week is my intensive CL lessons,from tues to thurs.
From morning to noon, sitting for CL paper 1 and paper 2 tests.
Then, after those, other subjects' teachers will ask for lessons?
CL teacher would then come back to class and go through the papers,
which would end up until like 4+pm?
Then we'll be having CL O'LVL paper on 29May.

After that, 4 days of structured prog during the JUNE HOLIDAY.
And WALA~ everything is finished,
just that holiday assignments will be pushed aside first? :/

Okay,long entry, thanks for reading the shit I typed. :D

2006-05-15T19:24:00.000+08:00

Man, I feel like I'm going back to those slacking days
when I was in sec 3. =.=
I had to admit that I did super bad for my MYE.
Even those subjects that I thought would have passed,
was... so done badly.
Mostly are border line failures.
And worst, I hadn't find any subjects passed for today. Pathetic.
I'm left with my CL and Geo. Sighs, hopeless.
I feel disgrace for myself and have disappointed my mum.
She disagreed to signing the "meet the parents session" consent form
which is like,compulsory for every student to take their report books.
And I'm sure she's gonna complain to the teacher that I've been playing comp.
Shucks, I so don't like the feeling =.=
And I still took $50 from her to buy stuffs I want
before I said that to her :/
I'm such an unfilial daughter ):

I can't wait for Wed,which is my sch's LIEU HOLIDAY!
I can't wait for my shopping dates to be set.
I can't wait to relax,play,enjoy,tan,gossip,crap,joke,retail therepy
etc etc.. on JUNE HOLIDAY (:

"Cindy ar,Cindy. Time to work hard liao lah!
Stop playing games and slack le. Time for revision!"
>.<

2006-05-13T18:10:00.000+08:00

Everything is going too smoothly, ain't it?
It's time for an ending.
It's time to stop being so soft-hearted.

2006-05-12T17:03:00.000+08:00

Every song is a cry for love
Every voice can rise above
So don't be afraid
Just show what you're made of
Sing it out. Every Song is a cry for love

Every day is a brand new start
Every night you could fall apart
Any time you doubt
The truth that's in your heart
Sing it out. Every song is a cry for love

Chorus
Being strong, being tough
Never tender always rough
It was never enough for me
In the dead of the night
Only love can hold you tight
Sing it out. Every song is a cry for love

Every kiss is a call for home
Every touch means you're not alone
You don't always have
To make it on your own
Sing it out. Every song is a cry for love

Chorus
Being strong, being tough
Never tender always rough
It was never enough for me
In the dead of the night
Only love can hold you tight
Sing it out. Every song is a cry for love
Sing it out. Every song is a cry for love
Sing it out. Every song is a cry for love

2006-05-11T15:39:00.000+08:00

Hohoho! Finally the END of MYE.
The end of stress,madness,craziness and tiredness :D

So I finally took some time to change my blogskin.
I really super like <-- my pic there.
LOL, artistic eh? :x

Okay,I shall begin from Tues,9May.
After exams, I went home and played rakion.
And then came out to meet ax,ele & oli at coffee bean.
It was super fun at first, and then stress and tired like hell at the end.
On that day, I saw SzeMin,Michael and Chialing too.

Then,I started my self-obsession craze with Chialing's hairband.
It was a super nice,large golden jewelled hairband!
Too bad,there's ain't pink for that ):
Anyway, I seriously like coffee bean's food and drinks :x
Shall show you the photos that I took!

The roasted chicken and mushroom fusilli which I shared with ele. :D

Spot me (:

And then folllowed by my self-obsession craze. :x

And then,last but not least with my bestie,AX.
I know it's FUGLY but it's our way. (:

For the rest of the days, I'm slacking alr. :/
On Wed,10May,played rakion almost whole day str after exams.
Hehe :B
And then finally today, THE LAST DAY OF HELL
Went to westmall to have KFC with ax,ele & oli.
Hohoho, and went to do shopping at SHOP & SAVE.
LOL, I know it's gay to do shopping in there.
But we still did and walked the entire place :x
End up, I bought UNCLE TOBYS STRAWBERRY YOGHURT TOPPS muesli bars.
Hehe,it's super nice.

P.S: PLS CLICK THE "LOVED" WORD TO TAG.
THE END. :D

2006-05-08T12:34:00.000+08:00

Where are those best friends I used to have?
Where are those people who are always around me?
Where-the-fuck are you guys!
Fuck you guys totally.
Now I see,every single one of you are just passer-bys.
Fuck off if you're not bothered about the friendship.
I don't bloody hell need you.
Fuck-tup.

~~FUCK OFF.~~

Is there a someone?

2006-05-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

I'm super lazy to study.
Tmr i'm having Physics and Maths.
And then is Chemistry.
I really feel like giving up to study -.-
I wanna play and enjoy.
TATA! I'm bored ):

2006-05-05T20:54:00.000+08:00

Hehe, I'm telling you guys great news.
Dj`Cin is back :x Oh well, I used to be a dj before.
From private and then to IRC channels.
And now, I'm back on private :D
Oh well, I was just bored and thinking of doing it
since I have some nice songs in my comp :x

Anyway, thanks JOAN for helping me to chk on my voice! :x
Only those who are in my msn,would know how to tune in.
Hohoho. And you must have winamp!
LOL,ok time for rakion (:

2006-05-02T16:55:00.000+08:00

You see, that JOAN has been tempting me
to change my blog layout, and I'm sort of tired
and sick of my this simple layout. LOL.
but man, tmr is the total shit subject that I
don't-really-like-paper which is POA.
and after that paper, would be english paper 2,
geo and chinese for this week.
Horrible. The worst are yet to come for this week.

Anyway, life has been fine
with those silly,dumb and blur friends of mine.
And of cause, with rakion as my partner.
And for the rest of my friends, that I've long to meet up with.
I do miss them. ):
And then last but not least, before I ~~MIA~~ from here again,
Good luck and all the best to everyone in MYE! (:
And remember to SMILE everyone! :D

I'm troubled yet still happy.
cause inside of me,I know I'm still in love with you <3

2006-04-29T22:44:00.000+08:00

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的

把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有

我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的

2006-04-26T14:00:00.000+08:00

I dread having colds,
cause I've been using tissues everyday. >.<
I dread attending geo lessons,
cause I'm still very mad at my teacher
even though he apologised today.
I dread exams,
cause I'm still in an oh-so-relaxed mood. :x

Gonna stay back at sch tmr to study.
no slacking anymore ):

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

If things are back to the past,
I wish I had never knew you at all.

2006-04-24T15:53:00.000+08:00

woohooo. IM FINALLY BACK!
ok, I don't really know what happen to my internet,
but it sort of couldn't connect for the previous weeks/days and month.
but I'm so glad that it is suddenly working right now.
but, this friday is the start of my MYE. wth right?
the comp must have been playing tricks on me.
but I'm like so dead relieve now
anyway, a lot of things happen for the past few weeks.
I'm lazy to type it all down.
anyway,I feel happy for ax,you should know the reason huh :D
alright, time to take medicine and nap
oh ya, I've been sick for the past few days. >.<
absent for the first time on last friday. cool.
tata guys.

2006-04-04T20:20:00.000+08:00

Nice,Great,Fun :D
school was totally stupid and boring today
after school, went to kfc with ele,oli & ax!
then to coffee bean to do hwk.
well,everything was nice and fun
but at some point of time emo. rahhhhh. >.<

anyway,I <3 all of them (:
then I just got home,and vomitted abit of the sushi I just ate
Yucks,disgusting I know.
LOL,I'm damn full,& am having food cravings this few days
I can just eat a zinger meal and be hungry next.
weird,LOL
and I thought today is monday,cause while I was in toilet just now
I asked my mum,"what time is it now mum?"
mum replied,"8.10pm"
I shouted,"campus superstar start liao!!"
and she told me,"today whr got superstar,TUESDAY LEH"
LOl,oops,something's wrong with my memory. :/

Why should I take your hand
when you can't promise happy endings?

2006-04-03T19:31:00.000+08:00

man,my right eye twitched violently today
and then,
I've been having this prob that my right jaw cracks every morning
and my mum says,
my right jaw must have went off its place,as in dislocated.
blame that long long time ago,
when I sneezed too hard and it dislocated my right jaw
mum says,I might need to see doc if it still occurs
and that,
I might need to go for an operation to bring it back =.=
I don't know why,I feel so pain and frightened. rahhhhhhh >.<

oh great,anyway,
I'm watching "zi jin zi dian" drama now.
super nice breakdance drama but very noisy and violent. LOL
going to watch campus superstar soon.
lastly, I <3 M&Ms & CANDIES! :D

2006-04-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

ZHIYANG,JIAYOU!! <3
total madness and craziness.
the results is coming out.
just hoped zhiyang will win the champion :D
i'll always support him!!!(:

2006-04-01T15:46:00.000+08:00

I'm holding on waiting for your call
it's simple but I can't explain this
I'm sinking down I feel like I could die
I'm falling off I don't know why
I still believe it when you say
it's another perfect day
another perfect day
I still believe it when you say
it's another perfect day
another perfect day
So I might try to leave it all behind
I know tomorrow's not so bright now
I'll say goodbye cause nothing good can last
(you wear and figured no where fast)
and today I don't know how to keep it all inside
but I guess I'll let it slide
I still believe it when you say
it's another perfect day
another perfect day
I still believe it when you say
it's another perfect day
another perfect day
Today I don't know why
I thought that it was real
but I guess it's no big deal
I still believe it when you say
it's another perfect day
another perfect day
I still believe it when you say
it's another perfect day
another perfect day
I don't know how
I don't know how
to let it slide

2006-03-31T22:15:00.004+08:00

everyone learnt their lesson today
a complicated day but of course, happy endings at last (:
I regretted about not running 400m/800m.
anyway, I've seen lots of different emotions today.
I hoped to lay my hands on 2 tickets to campus superstar finals.
"2 peas" people!

You don't remember me, but I remember you.
I lie awake and try so hard not to think of you.
But who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do.

2006-03-29T17:44:00.000+08:00

we had a talk. short and quick one
and it's over.
I didn't ask why,but he told me
I didn't say how I felt
I only ended with ok,goodbye.take care.
called ben, as I really needed someone to talk on phone
let me cry,let me shout,let me scold,let me whine
thankyou,ben.
I should learn to be like joan
"It's time for you to smile more alr,now it's over."
but,it was really heartache.
I can't deny. it hurts like fuck.
and afterall,it was from him,like finally.
I do not need to bring my courage to say anything
typing these, my tears just flow.
my love's abit down to the drain,should I say this?
but thanks afterall,for everything.

so long and goodbye.
I need time to cool down. I'm not gonna be fine for now.

2006-03-29T14:57:00.000+08:00

got hit by a whiteboard duster
all thanks to those playful gay classmates of mine
it hurts seriously bad,spoil my whole mood for today
made me cry so hard
I'm so unwell,giddy and headache
almost got fever, but lucky it subsided.
now I have a "baluku" on my head.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhh

fuckyou,bastards!

thanks all my darlings,ax,joan,ele.
I'll pick myself up as long as everything is over,
which is I don't know when.
but for you guys, I'll try.
love all of you <3

2006-03-28T21:01:00.000+08:00

fuck, I don't like the feeling I have now
have you done enough?
I'm often been dumped into the well...
I have to scream,go mad,cry and whine
and everytime,when I decide something
it changes and shakes my decision
when will this ever end?
I seriously need someone to talk to
I wanna cry and scream right now
thankyou again, for bringing this pain back
when you ever needed someone, friends are always not there
sighs....
I must have done this too much times

^{I have to admit I'm sad, it hurts real bad.}

2006-03-28T18:58:00.000+08:00

I tried to fight the feeling, a feeling took me down
I struggled and I lost the day you knocked me out
Now everything's got meaning, and meanings bring me down
I'm watching as a screening of my life plays out.
Everyday I fight these feelings
For your sake I will hide the real thing
You can run all your life, all mine I will chase
You should never fight your feelings
When your very bones believe them
You should never fight your feelings
You have to follow nature's law
I'll live with never knowing, if knowing's gonna change
Or stop a feeling growing I will stay away
Like a broken record stuck before a song
A million beginnings none of them the one
Everyday I fight these feelings
For your sake I will hide the real thing
You can run all your life, all mine I will chase
You should never fight your feelings
When your very bones believe them
You should never fight your feelings
You have to follow nature's law
I wrote her letters and tried to send them
In a bottle I place my hope
An SOS full of good intentions sinking
Will you give it to me, don't make me wait
You built me up, knocked me down
But I will stand my ground
And guard this light that I've found
You should never fight your feelings
When your very bones believe them
If you let them show, you'll keep them
I know your hurt but soon you'll rise again, again, again….
You should never fight your feelings
When your very bones believe them
You should never fight your feelings

2006-03-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

after I'm done with this, I'm off to study.
tmr - maths and poa test
wed - geo test
thurs - chem test
fri - sports day. off school early :D

I bought my I-Weekly magazine for campus superstar
zhiyang is super cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeee, just love his eyes.
and I still have not decide what to do with the poster :x
and we got a new P.E teacher today. woah, cute. LOL :s
I'm busy this whole week exclude weekends, I hoped.
I've only got one thing in my mind, it's to study.
and for the rest, I shouldn't bother too much.

fuck what I said, I don't mean shit now.
goodbye.

2006-03-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

rahhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I'm totally in a fucked-up mood now.
I've played too much rakion,
and rakion always rised up my blood pressure.
it's so freaking tiring

^{things are going so wrong recently.
until now,
I still don't have the clear reason of why you're like that
and everything changed so much.
seriously,sometimes I feel like giving up
or rather,often that I have that thought.
I don't wanna add on to the burden of
whatever is hiding inside you
and,that I don't wanna think that
you don't care or don't love me anymore.
because your every actions don't show me anything
maybe, I'm too stupid afterall,
that I can't understand any single thing right now
and maybe afterall,I wasn't suitable for you.
and I still have to go on like nothing's wrong.}

Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way.

2006-03-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

went window shopping with my darling,ax today.
went to trim eyebrows first and then off to causeway point.
rahhh. I was pathetically left with only $4. sighs
anyway, great I got a MOS BURGER treat from ax's mum :x
ok, I'm soooo thick skin :/
anyway, then went walking around.
went to arcade, and wait for hell long
to play jurassic park =.=
and I saw this super nice tee at CONVERSE
which is at $29.90
ax, bought another tee. but I couldn't buy it
anyway, gonna pester my bro to giv me money to buy :x
as he is going to get his salary soon. hohoho :D
and oh ya, I took lots of super cute collections of baby animals.
and also, lovely and cute bears which are wrapped for lovers.
I'm lazy to upload them, hehe (:

style right!

^{I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...}

2006-03-24T18:28:00.000+08:00

rahhh. I cut a kuku fringe
and I am so regreting it now.
I'm back home early today
with the plan of slacking whole day.
sat and sun, I guess there will not be any programmes
and well, I'll be rotting at home then,
studying,doing hwk and watching tv.
and of course, then at night I shall rakion.
I feel like I'm writing a poem now. :o
anyway, I got back my progress card today,
which is something like a report card.
my results are not satisfying to me, and are kinda weak.
I need to get more As.
and lastly, I love my long nails :D

我的心如此无力

2006-03-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
I totally have nth to do.
ate packet noodles just now.
and my rakion is still not fine yet.
finally I've finished the 2 hard tests today.
next week, I'm having geo,maths and poa. =.=
god, why in the world do we have tests and exams?
can't everyone be treated and looked equally?
why must take it to determine how smart your brain is.
rahhh. stupid.

sighs, suddenly I feel so useless. rah ):

2006-03-22T15:03:00.000+08:00

rahhhhhhhhh.
ok from now on, I shall let you guys just see 1 day post!
so if the entry that I type is super short,
then below is completely blank :/
this setting, I got it from AN's blog :x
hehehe. ty ty :D

anyway, I was super tiring today.
as recently I've been watching the DA CHANG JIN on channel u,
which ended at 11pm every night.
so, I always have to keep my eyes open until it finished.
it's a super nice show. touching (:
tmr I'm having 2 super hard to memorise tests
physics and chemistry. hurhur.
so shall offline later and study like nerd ><
all right, for now is CHEESE FRIESSS. yummmy :D

life's hard.
but often there are people around me
who cheers me up :D

2006-03-21T16:11:00.000+08:00

watch ZHIYANG here!(:

so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee right? :D
and, he got in the finals!!!
because of him, I slept super late ytd night
because I was waiting for the results.
though I know there is another repeat telecast on sat.
but I'm just so super scared and anxious.
hehehe, and nice I got the results I want :x
hope he'll be the WINNER (:

ok,my madness shall stop for now.
I shall go bathe and rush assignments again ><

2006-03-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀让我飞也有回去的窝
我愿意我也可以付出一切也不会可惜
就在一起看时间流逝要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你有悲有喜有你平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你甜蜜又安心那种感觉就是你
我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀让我飞也有回去的窝
我愿意真的愿意付出所有也要保护你
Oh 在一起时间继续流逝请记得我有多么的爱你
Oh 就是爱你爱着你不弃不离开不在意一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你放在你手心灿烂的幸福全给你
Oh 就是爱你爱着你我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你要我们在一起

2006-03-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

went to bugis with ax for some shopping!
bought a super cool tee & a black jeans
wahahaha. I spent quite less alr ok!
I need a pair of nice,cool shoes ):
after shopping, went to eat at mac
and chat some imaginations and
our dream guy or dream love story we want
I KNOW IT'S TOTALLY CRAP.
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
anyway, am having bad stomach day.
something is terribly wrong with my stomach ><
ok, needa bathe and then do abit of my assignments
then, rakion :D

stupid baby,if you ever read this
I was about to ask you if you're free tmr
but you totally spoiled my mood just now.
RAH. ps: ^{I miss you ):}

2006-03-17T21:15:00.000+08:00

wahahaha. went to ax's hse to do hol assignments
with ele and oli. but oli was sick so he went home first.
had kfc delivery :D
and ended up, crapping, watching anime,
strolled to ppl's friendster profile
and some pig was sleeping. AHEMS. hahahahahaha :x
here's some pic we took, DON'T LAUGH TY ! ><

2006-03-16T16:03:00.000+08:00

hohoho. changed a new layout.
just a sudden idea pop out into my mind :D
ok, guys I need your help,
do you see the "CINDY" image beside my profile details there,
should I or should I not put it?
I've been thinking and
I can't make up my mind. rahhhhhhhhh.

ok, I'm bored.
no one is entertaining me right now.
so shall do holiday assignments alr !

2006-03-15T20:19:00.000+08:00

wahahaha :D
today went to oli's hse with ax and ele to do hwk
but I was there to disturb them :x
at the start, I alighted the wrong bus stop
ok, laugh as you want. ><
cause this is the first time I've been to oli's hse ok!!
I went there only to finish my phyics and nth more alr :/
LOL.
anyway, we talked about each supernaturals' experiences.
had funny drama bickering with ele
and rudy,the dog is very scary!
then headed home
all thanks to them,
cause if not I might be at home sinking into
the fairytale drama vcd I'm watching.
alright, dinner and rakion laters (:

my baby is not feeling well
and I don't know what to do to help ):

2006-03-14T18:38:00.000+08:00

this year, the love is so different
so different that I have to tolerate so many things
so different I have to stop hoping & wishing.
so different that I didn't know
how much I've changed myself.
so different that I've ever bear so far.
sighs.

I dream a world where you understand
that I dream a million sleepless nights.

2006-03-14T00:05:00.000+08:00

ZHIYANG GOT IN THE FINALS!!!
and someone mistaken that I'm supporting yuyang -.-
almost scared me to death when she told me yuyang was out
in my testimonial.
as she should know I'm supporting zhiyang -.-
and so I thought she might be telling me
that zhiyang is out but mistakenly spelled wrong.
but she is damn blur CAN.
YOU SHOULD KNOW WHO ARE U HUH !
rahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ok, shall show you exactly who is zhiyang,智阳!
he is super cute and
has mesmerizing eyes that I'm very attracted to :D

it's our 1 month, you know?

2006-03-13T13:59:00.000+08:00

狗改不了吃屎 !

wahahaha, evil laughters ! :D
I bought my special nail polish. hehe.
ok, rakion time ! :b

2006-03-11T18:17:00.000+08:00

nothing much happened recently.
have been watching a taiwan drama
"In love with a senorita" vcd
from ytd until this morning.
I'm left with 1 last episode.
damn sad and funny.

ps: I'm still waiting for
"It started with a kiss" part 2 vcd.
*hinting someone*

如果开始就能看见幸福
不在别人眼光耳语中迷路
或许我不能把爱看清楚
想把你的手牢牢握住
如果这是通往爱的旅途
也许过程注定要荆棘密布
但我不後悔选择这条路
你的爱让我深深体会
活著的感触

2006-03-08T16:02:00.000+08:00

2006-03-07T16:51:00.000+08:00

LA. so tired, so weak and so dying today!
I got my $50 from my bro ytd night
and he's going NS this friday.
I think I'll miss the noisy,irritating bro after all ):
and I'll be so alone when I'm home as my parents are still working.
suddenly I realised my bro is so impt to me!
but anyway, take care bro! (:

anyway, ran 2.4km ytd. madness!
I thought I was gonna faint or vomit after it
but I cooled off anyway. but I was still totally weak
I'm going to consider on sunday
whether should I head to jiemei's hse or not :x
WEEKENDDD FASTER COME ! next week holiday :D
but still got programmes in school.
bored totally!
my fringe, how should I cut =.=
rakion laters :D

2006-03-04T21:15:00.000+08:00

tired, super tired!
my dressing colour was special
pink,purple,white,green and black :x
went sentosa today but end up
we went off early around 1pm+
we played volleyball! but the sand was super hot -.-
didn't wet myself totally with the cooling water
didn't get enough tan
took lots of photos and stuffs
eat and drink like the end of the world
after sentosa went to pool at bukit timah
blahhhhhhhh.
I am lazy to type in detailed :/

2006-03-03T23:22:00.000+08:00

hehehehe, super tiring.
went shopping spree with my clique
but I didn't buy much though I keep saying how much I want it
I saw a nice brown/pink tee,$14 and
a nice brown/light brown shoulder-drop tee,$9.90
at BUGIS.
was hunting for my shorts too,
but wasn't to my liking >.<
anyway, went to far east after that
to look for my green shorts!
and I finally bought it :D
and I saw my white/green bag again at $28
hohoho, it got me feeling itchy again =.=
man, but anyway, i just hoped my bro will giv me the $50! :x

TMR'S THE SENTOSA TRIP
gonna wake up early tmr to prep sandwiches and stuffs
CAN'T WAIT, CAN'T WAIT!

to my darling,ax: cheer up. I LOVE YOU OK ! mwahs*
shall bring you out shopping with me next week or someday!

2006-03-02T19:10:00.000+08:00

What should I exactly buy tmr?
Though I have made up my mind,
but there are still hesitations
I'm going to get my fringe cut too
and I dunno which to cut -.-
woah, I am so indecisive
I can nvr make up my mind

and I can't wait to meet up with my clique on sat to sentosa
ever since that outing, I miss them seriously alot
they make me happy and it's great being with them
though these few days were ups and downs.
with them, I feel happy and carefree
like nth had ever happened

life had nvr been easy on me ever since this yr
I hadn't expected it to be so much and so tiring.
I wish this yr would just fly past me.

2006-03-01T18:13:00.000+08:00

my mind went totally blank

I'm sorry ele,ax and mui for acting this way
out of sudden.
and after all,today seemed to be a bad day for the girls
as after mine,was others
ELE, CHEER UP! YOU GOT US (:

then went back to sch to go to the ngee ann poly
well, was kinda boring at first, but soon
I went around making ppl eat "green peas"
which was wasabi pea :D
it was kinda fun though I know I'm mad

Weakness

2006-02-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

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sigh.
things are like getting worse each day
and I can't do anything right now, I guess
for now, I only can make myself happy
and force myself happy
I have to tell myself,
that I can't be bothered about it
that I shouldn't be even thinking about it
I don't feel anything.
I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
in front of you, in front of everyone
kindly spare me a thought, I really need it.

2006-02-27T17:40:00.000+08:00

school is super boring
I kept sleeping :D

this friday, I shall spend $60 for my shorts and my bag
and is all for sentosa and I still can go out with it too.
white & green bag and a green shorts.
and I needa buy a short and long sleeve shirt too.
ax infulence me with buying shirts! =x
and the $60 most probably will be taken from my hongbao money
which until now I haven't even bank in yet.
so I can spend it!
ok I would at least need a $100. JUST $100 would be enough.
am I asking too much? :/
then I'll be left $40 for my shirt and that's ENOUGH ALR! :D
sorry, I'm dreaming I know. LOL
but still, I miss that bag, I need a shorts
it's weird of me buying green stuffs right?
cause all my darlings complain that I needa chg a new colour
and suddenly green stuffs interest me :x

2006-02-25T20:55:00.000+08:00

We were supposed to have a lot of plans
but weather was totally complicated
looked like raining, and the next was sunny
and then looked like raining again.
Went to town with my darling, ax today.
just to shop for my shorts, $24.90 but there was no black,
only green, which ax say it wasn't suitable for me.
ok, I brought ax around and round the far east just for my shorts
and then, end up buying a new wallet for myself :D
but I'll still be hunting for my shorts.
and I saw this super nice bag
which was green and white. $35.90
man, I ask for a black/white or pink/white colour
but it was only availabe in those colours that I don't like
it was still nice! should I buy it? :/
ok, time to rakion.

ps:ty all my darlings.

2006-02-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

went east coast today with my clique.
went cycling from the end and to the next end.
at first decided to take a cab there, but we saw chanel's dad
so he drove us there. first time sitting at the back of a lorry or van.
anyway, it was quite fun and exciting. I went mad and crazy.
and keep stretching out my hand to knock on my the front seat's window.
well, I got some photos to upload but not in the mood now.

then went to bugis, I wanted to find a short
to go to sentosa next sat but couldn't find it.
saw heart-shaped stickers which cost $9.90.
super nice. but I only left a pathetic $2 . sigh
anyway after that, I was seriously down and tired.

I cried while I was listening to my mp3.
kept looking down and pretend,
so that my clique don't know anything.
I'm just so tired,
I wish that everyday I would have my clique to cheer me up.
but they can nvr always be there for me
and I can nvr be that girl I used to be
sigh. do you understand?

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been

2006-02-23T20:07:00.000+08:00

I have just removed the whole entry of my feelings here.
I'm trying to hear myself complain.
and for one thing, I'm not that happy-go-lucky girl always
maybe after all, I shouldn't have exist in this world
I'm sick and tired of everything thats happening.

2006-02-23T18:41:00.000+08:00

I don't know
If I'm the one for you in this life
I can't help
Hearing my voice calling your name
Cuz when I'm
Trying so hard not to look in your eyes
Maybe I
Have fallen in love with you

Well tonight
Maybe this time I can hear you breathe
Its alive to see you smile
With those tears in your eyes
They may say
That you're just a girl in this spinning world
In my heart
You're like the world to me

I can't so describe
How I'm feeling deep inside
So much more than I can say
With your touch it feels so right
Oh my, you're so near
All the time in this place
For I know in my heart
I'll never let you go
In this lifetime
Do you know why oh baby
Cus you're just so
Beautiful to me

Touch my hand; feel my heart
Hold me close and you'll find me
You'll find me
You're so beautiful to me ..

2006-02-22T16:15:00.000+08:00

I don't like today.
I attended a stupid and scary geo lesson
man, I tell you the most scariest and crappiest lesson ever.

student:what's your question again ar, teacher?
mr.tan:my question again is the question to the questions
WHOLE CLASS: LAUGHSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
(it's okay that you don't get the joke
you needa be at that situation to understand.)

anyway,I doze off and mr.tan saw me.
I can nvr sleep peacefully in his lessons.
I might died of heart attack eventually.
he keep shouting my name and scaring ppl out of their wits

ELE FINALLY CAME BACK TO SCH TODAY !! :D
ate kfc just now and bought my CHOCO FANTASY cookies
and here I'm back home.
tmr is geo common test so I needa study alr.
I WANNA WATCH FINAL DESTINATION 3
AND I NOT STUPID TOO !

2006-02-21T18:05:00.000+08:00

man, super tired today!
anyway, someone said something wrong to me,
and I didn't talk to her after that
serve her right, for hurting me with thoseee words. :b
and my class was having a change of arrangement of seats
lucky ax and I no need to. hehehe.
ate kfc after remedial and headed home.
I so like the "choco fantasy" cookie
from the basement floor of westmall.
I'M GONNA GET MORE TMR!

anyway, today's horoscope for me was kinda true,
esp the last sentence
"You'll be no good to anyone if you're not getting enough sleep."
true man, cause I keep getting moodswings :x
oh well, more homework coming up.
so time to do my homework alr ):

*SHOUTS* baby, if you're reading this,
I misss youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu <3